100 in 300

So most everyone who has talked to me in the last year knows that in May I "ran" a half marathon. At the time I was in the best physical health of my life. Now I struggle daily to control what and how much I eat. It's not that I am not aware of the weight I have gained back, it's just like I don't acknowledge it. I almost see myself as I was just 6 months ago instead of seeing the 300lbs guy in the mirror. I thought about why I gained all my weight back and the only conclusion I can come to is that I stopped trusting God with this area of my life. I 'took the wheel' so to speak and ran off the road into a huge ditch. I like to make a big deal of things and I like to feel proud of myself. So 'running' this race gave me satisfaction and made me think I could control all of this. When in reality it was my lack of control that got me to my goal. It was trusting God with every daily food based decision that got me to where I was just 6 short months ago.

"I know that you will, over come Evil for Good." This is a line from Elle G a song by Newsboys (old school Newsboys). It happened to be on while I was righting this post. I know that God can overcome evil for good in my life. I just have to wake up every morning and put my faith/trust/life in His hands. I am making a pledge right here in now to lose 100lbs in 300 days. I am making this pledge to the God who created me, who can move mountains, and create planets. I have faith in my God to be bigger than my desires and compulsions to eat myself to death. I will not let Satan destroy the man that God has made me. I will not let sin rule my life. I know God will over come EVIL for GOOD! Day 1 is today, I weight 300.2lbs. Please pray for me as I know the attacks will be worse than ever. The temptations will be stronger and harder. My God is Stronger! My God is Bigger! My God is All Powerful!