I have been very successful going backwards! I am up to 306.4 now! I am so tired all the time. It's not just physical, it's emotionally, mentally, spiritually. I am very apathetic towards everything right now. So it really comes down to make or break time. I only have about 3 months until the half marathon. I only have 8 months to get to 200 lbs. On the bright side none of my clothes fit me...
I don't know that I really care enough to do this all over again. The first time was more of a "can I do it" thing. Now I know I can and I just so don't care... I don't like who I am right now but nothing is really pushing me to change. It's that comfy lukewarm feeling that can be so easy to swim in.
I honestly don't know what will happen to me. I just know I am close to breaking one way or another. The tension is building in the apathy and it will break through soon.
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