Yep...

Why does change require so much action and effort? To change is hard and it always seems to require more effort than I am willing to give. You would think that after years of trying on my own to change things I would learn to give these things up to God. I know that is what I should do but for some reason I don't. My level of frustration with my old habits has reached an all time high. But despite this I still choose to live in my old habits. I need a change and I need it now.